Dear Lord thank you for getting me through this day

Today is one of those days that I either start the day with begging Jesus for the strength and patience to deal with the day ahead of me. Well today is a day where I said a silent prayer thanking Him for getting me through this day...

Today was Kristopher's first trip to the dentist. Yeah I know I should have taken him before while he was younger or before he got a cavity...I know. This was something I have been putting off for the fear he would freak out...or I would...I don't know. Plus this is the first time we have had family dental insurance. Anyways to make things easier we had our appts. together so he could see that mommy was going through the same thing and the dentist isn't so scary. Keep in mind I have a very low level of pain tolerance and have not been to the dentist in years! So I was scared about tyring to be tough because Kristopher was there with me. Anyways Kristopher did great but of course we both need tons of dental work! Kristopher's cavity is so bad that he basically needs a pediatric root canal, ugh. Plus the idiot dentist that did my root canal did not make me a proper crown and now I have a big gap in between the crown and my gums so now I need the old one removed and a new one in it's place. This alone is going to costs from $750-$1,000!!! That's with freaking insurance! Ugh. So needless to say we both have about 2 to 3 more visit each for all the crap we need done. So lesson learned, don't neglect your teeth. I get it. I saw pamphlets about a healthy mouth leads to overall health. Again....baby steps.

Oh I neglected to say that before the appt. I had to drop off the girl (my twins) off at my mom's house. Could you imagine tyring to go to the dentist with two 20mn. old babies running everywhere....not gonna happen.

Anyways after the appt. I had to rush Kristopher to school hoping that we make it in time for his reading test. By the time I dropped him off it was already 1pm and he gets out at 3pm. But he had a test, P.E. class, and had to get his homework and books for the week. So then I had to drive up to my mom's to get my girls, feed them lunch, then turn right back around and pick up Kristopher. So I made it one time and happy to find out that he made the test, did not have to make up a missed P.E. class, and got his homework and books for the day. Whew! Well not really I sensed something was wrong and after some lying (on his party) and probing I found out he got his first detention. 7am tomorrow morning....yeah. So needless to say he's grounded for the day. As the afternoon went on I then completely lost my temper with him for 1-getting detention, 2-spilling choc late ice cream on the dinning room chairs and carpet, 3-losing his library book which is due tomorrow. It's time like this where I look back at myself at the end of the night and feel guilty for the yelling and cursing and losing my patience.

But there was some light at the end of evening which makes all the other crap disappear. Felicity pooped in the potty....yeah. The small but huge milestone for all mothers.

Being a stay at home mom of my son and my twins is by far the hardest job I have ever had. Some days (like this) I just want to run away and scream. But it is my choice to stay home and raise my children to the best that I know how. I truly believe that this is the most important job I will ever have in my life and I will continue to pray to God for strength and patience to take it day by day.

So all the kids are now in bed and I'm venting in this blog having myself and cocktail. Yippee.