Today is our 12yr. wedding anniversary. Wow I can't believe it's been that long. We don't exchange gifts but we just try to make an effort to go out on a date. That means more to me than any gift he could give me. I have been with Brian forever but I still remember that feeling when I first saw him when I was just 17yrs. old. I fell so fast and hard, it was like those stupid cartoons when cupid shoots the arrow and the person sees heart or stars...lol. He was so awkard and goofy and wore thick black glasses. But all I saw was his beautiful face and this great big smile. Now I think oh my gosh we now have two girls and if one of them settled down and married young I would probably flip out. Wow what my parents must have gone through, lol. We have been through money problems, lost close family members, and don't get to spend enough time with each other but I can honestly say I'm still deeply in love with him and I have never wanted to be with anybody else. I don't know if "soul mates" really exsists but I know that we were truly meant to be together. Weird little things have happened over the years like picking up the phone to call him and he was already on the other end of the line. That has happened several times over the years and it's something that I don't think I have expereinced with anybody else before. In fact it just happened again two days ago. Plus this morning as soon as I opened my eyes I got his text wishing me a happy anniversary and a sweet message. Believe we are NOT by any means the lovely dovey type at all. I know it's hard to tell by this blog today but it's true. I am truly so happy and feel very blessed with him. I thank him for being a great husband and giving me three beautiful children. Things are far from perfect and don't believe people who say their marriage is because it's all an illusion, a show. But I hope we share another 40, 50 years...wow that sounds forever lol.

Kristopher turn 8!

Today my son Kristopher turned 8. I can't believe it. It's so true about all the people who say that time with your children flies by so fast. He's becoming his own person full of his own beliefs, ideals, and interests. Even though I get a little sad when I look at baby pictures of him I can't wait to see what kind of man he will turn out to be. He is very intelligent and loves to build his Lego sets. I'm hoping he will become an engineer or something along those lines. I also pray that he is happy and that we can continue to provide the best education we can and a safe environment to grow up in. He has helped me so much with our twin girls and I don't know what I would do without him. Since Brian works so much me and kids spend a lot of time together and are extremely close. I hope that doesn't ever fade away but I know it will take a lot of effort on my part as well. I love being a mom and I can barely imagine what my life was like before I had kids.

Love ya babe!

Since this was the first time I have ever voted I was extremely involved in this election. I couldn't watch enough debates and coverage of the race. I am so happy that Obama won the presdential race. I'm also very excited that California voted yes for Prop 2. Hopefully industrial farming will start to be run differently and there will be less harmful treatment of the farm animals and our food will be safer.

Miss you Daddy

Today is the one year anniversary of losing my dad, Richard. Today (especially this morning) was very hard. But as the day has gone on I am also so thankful that God gave me such a wonderful dad. My dad was amazing and he never hid his love for us. I have never met someone who fought so hard for life. He understood that family, friends, and most importantly faith in God is all that mattered in the world. He always wanted the best for us and did just about everything in his power to make sure that we were always taken care of. There have been little things this past year when I missed him most like my twin girls first birthday, my niece being born, and for my son Kristopher who misses his papa Richard. I can't believe a year has flown by and I constantly feel his presence in my house, not in a scary way but in a comforting way. I know he is my guardian angle and I can't wait to meet him up in heaven. He has taught me so much and I will make sure that my children will know what an amazing man their grandfather was.

I love you daddy.

Oprah: How We Treat The Animals We Eat

Today is the day I have been looking forward to watching the Oprah show. If you did not get a chance to see today show please visit http://www.oprah.com/dated/oprahshow/oprahshow_20081008_animals

Oprah discussed along with farmers on both sides of Prop 2. It was interesting to see the industrial farmers trying to rationalize the horrible confinement of most farm animals. Before I read Skinny Bitch I really had no idea of what industrial farms were about. I was completely naive I'm sure just like many Americans of where our food comes from. It was amazing to me to see the difference between the free range chicken, pig, and veal farms as opposed to the industrial farms. I still can't believe to this day why anyone in the world would even eat veal! I truly believe in, you get what you pay for. As a mother I am willing to pay extra for my organic groceries knowing that it is not only free of pesticides, chemicals, and artificial colors and flavors but it is also good for the environment and humane treatment of animals.

Oprah for me is the queen "hail Oprah" lol. She has so much influence over many women that I believe today she truly has brought more awareness to this issue and would not be surprised to see the demand for free range eggs, poultry, beef, and pork on the rise.

I love you Oprah.

So little time, a million things to do

This weekend I was hoping on getting some projects done around the house (cleaning the stains out of carpet, cleaning out my fridge, working on craft projects). Plus I have my usual chores like laundry, bills, dishes, etc. Since we had no plans I was looking forward to getting these things done but of course Felicity got sick. She has some sort of virus that started with a fever and now a light rash. Alyssa got something similar a few months ago but she did not get it this bad. Felicity just cries and cries on and off all day. Plus Alyssa is constantly "escaping" from the family room and getting into everything (dumped the dog food in the dog's water, pulled everything off the dinning room table, playing with the computer)...it's funny because everything she gets she's hand over to Felicity in the family room...lol. So as you can imagine I don't think I'm going to get all of that done this weekend. Oh and I got my absentee voting ballot and OMG it's like freakin studying for the SAT exam. There are pages and pages of the props you have to vote for, explaining all of the facts, pros and cons....ugh. I only got up to the 4th prop and started to fall alseep..lol
I'm also trying to read 3 books and have a ton of magazines to catch up on in my spare time....hilarious...yeah not gonna happen.
Anyways I swear I could rant and rave in this blog several times each day every day...lol
I can't even remember what I did with my time before I had kids. Oh wait yeah I was working full time and getting my degree...just as busy but in a very different way.

Rattled Mind

I don't know if it's because we have a big presidential election coming up or what, but many things keep swirling around in my mind. The main issue is our economy. I have heard a couple of times on tv from financial "experts" that this is the worst in modern times since the great depression. The GREAT DEPRESSION. That is some scary shit! When I think of the Great Depression I imagine everyone out of work, people living in shelters, families being torn apart. I hope to God that does not happen to us. But hopefully our government won't let it get that far. They had to have learned from the mistakes of the past, right? I hope so.
Right now I am a stay at home mom and my husband works in the car industry. But since his salary depends on commission sales, times are rough. My husband said more and more dealership are closing! He's working more hours and bringing home less $$$, ugh! I know right now is the time when I should be working to help him pay the bills but I just don't know how, with unemployment being up so high and plus having to pay for school and day care for 3 children. I'm not sure of what all of our futures hold but I know several people that have lost their jobs recently and it just scares the crap out of me.
Regardless of who is elected our next president, they have a hell of job ahead of them. Everybody is going to look to him to change and improve everything. So God bless who takes that position of running our country...he'll need all of our prayers!